Raw
by Chris on Feb.01, 2004, under General Thoughts
I don’t know why, but for the last few days — say, a week or so — i’ve been feeling just… raw. Scraped thin. I don’t think it’s tired, per se, although that’s not helping, but i feel like…
I feel like i always do before things go bad, that’s how i feel. It’s a feeling of impending doom, hanging over my head, and i don’t have anything i can see telling me what’s coming. Life isn’t perfect, but I can’t see any signs that the really important things in it — School, Char, friends — are going anywhere…
Yeah, i know… “precognition”. Feh. Pseudoscientific bullshit psychobabble. Crap. But this is a feeling I’ve learned to heed, because it’s been right more often than it’s been wrong. It’s not deterministic or anything, but it makes me nervous all the same. I only hope i’m wrong and my life — so good until now — isn’t going into a tailspin around me.
Wish me luck 
February 2nd, 2004 on 2:28 pm
Good luck
February 2nd, 2004 on 2:52 pm
So maybe it’s not precognition. Maybe there is no such thing (maybe there is, however, I don’t really think so either. At least, I don’t believe there are people who can do it on a regular basis and therefore should charge money to do it), but maybe it’s your intuition (which is different) that’s telling you these things. I hope it’s wrong this time. Good luck.
February 3rd, 2004 on 4:48 pm
you’re tired because you haven’t been sleeping enough and you have a sense of impending doom because you are watching too much buffy. This is the reason you are tired.
You usually get this way mid-winter (like around mid february if you catch my drift) at least for as long as I’ve known you.
Everything is fine. Well, maybe not for Fritz, maybe you are sympathetic to his sense of impending doom.
February 3rd, 2004 on 5:25 pm
Good luck buddy.
February 3rd, 2004 on 11:19 pm
Hey, mate. If it’s any consolation, I can commiserate. I typically get anxious and somewhat depressed during the winter months, likely due to light-starvation (I’m bloody vegetable matter, eh); reading this entry, well, it seemed as something spawned from my own mind. Hang in there; all those intangible and unnamed fears shall be for naught.
February 4th, 2004 on 3:55 pm
I think Char’s got it right. This is about the time the winter blahs set in. I think I got a case of them.